Love is one of the most touching feeling in everyones’ life. There is not a single sentence that could define the whole sense of love. It’s such a divine feeling which can only be experienced but not defined. Love can turn a culprit to a soft human. You find the beauty in yourself when you start loving someone. Love makes you do stupid things for the one who you love. You walk slower when he/she is with you.
You start to write his/her name and text again and again. In the winter, on your foggy window glasses, you’ll start writing his/her name near yours in the sign of love you’ve drawn. You wake up in the morning, dreaming about your love: and you go to bed with this same thought. He/she will be the reason of your silent smiles. When you walk, when you write, when you read, when you laugh, when you eat, and even when you sleep, his/her smiling face will be on the screen of your mind. And in your loneliness, his/ her memories will accompany you.
First love.. That is, your first experience of this awesome feeling for the first time in life. You find yourself in a dream world. It’s the time when the romantic phase begins. Your life seems to be a fairytale. For a girl, the one who she loves become the most handsome, strong, and the smartest boy she had ever met. And for a boy, his lover is the most loving, beautiful, most intelligent and pretty girl in this world. Your ears start to wait impatiently to hear you lovers’ call, your eyes start browsing for him/her more than any google map could do. You’ll re-examine the places where you had met your loved one earlier. In every crowded streets, buses or in any busy malls, you’ll find him/her as an FBI officer finding the victim without any GPS or map service. And you start enjoying melodious songs and love every small things around you.
But this same wonderful feeling could also give you the memories and pain which no one other could heal. You realize this truth only when you come out from it, and understand that you could no longer get it back. Your first love is not only the person who you loved first, but also the person who you’ll always compare everyone to. No one else will have that special smell which brings back those thousand memories. You may want to text them, but then you remember you both don’t talk no more. You start to lose belief in love which was once the same thing you believed in most because of the same person. You are afraid to love anyone again since you have experienced the real pain of losing. As high you have gone up in your love, that same depth you will have to fall when it’s been broken. Whenever you think about it, you will find tears on your face. No matter how long you have covered, whenever you think about the past, the first love will takeover your other beautiful memories. Even when you have traveled around the world, those sites where you had found him/her would raise your heartbeat than any other places. And no matter how hard you try, those feelings will never go away from your heart and will haunt you until the last breath in one or other way.